WI Y2 Week 5

Well somehow I managed to lose 600g last week – don’t ask me how as like I said in my last post I had a shocker of a week - anyway not going to complain (well maybe a little bit!) as I will take it and move on. 

I am struggling to get that drive back that had at this time last year – it just occurred me whilst looking over my blog that I have been pretty much at this weight now for 3 months – give or take a couple of kilo’s….. Why am I stuck here? Why am I not moving on? My 40th is now less than 2 months away and I have pretty much given up that I will meet the goal – why do I do that? – there is still time – yes it would be a really big ask now but hey I could get pretty close if I got stuck into it…but the motivation for my birthday has all but vanished.

The plan was to have a party with a friend who is also turning 40 a week before me – we though it would be a good idea to do a combined party (we live quite close and share some mutual friends) – we decided that we would just include friends and no family ( I have a large extended family) and we would do our own separate family things – well that is about where it came unstuck – I mentioned this to my Mum and she was not happy – I was quite surprised – she is not a party person at all – her dad go out a lot with friends but really just out to eat somewhere and they are generally home by 10ish…anyway my Mum appeared to be quite upset though she kept saying that she did not care but you could tell by the tone that this was not the case (our family is not very good and just saying what they feel!)….anyway my Sister said that she made a few comments about just being the baby sitter etc… so at this stage I knew this was not going to be a good idea (my Mum does a lot for me and my kids without her I would struggle to raise my children). So I spoke with my friend and we decided that it would probably be best if we did our thing. So that is where I am at – to do a party or not??? I am actually really not that keen anymore at all just too hard really….But I really need to make a decision very soon so I can book a date into everyone calendar….at stage I am thinking maybe I just go to dinner with a couple of close friends and leave it at that.