WI Y2 Week 5

Well somehow I managed to lose 600g last week – don’t ask me how as like I said in my last post I had a shocker of a week - anyway not going to complain (well maybe a little bit!) as I will take it and move on. 

I am struggling to get that drive back that had at this time last year – it just occurred me whilst looking over my blog that I have been pretty much at this weight now for 3 months – give or take a couple of kilo’s….. Why am I stuck here? Why am I not moving on? My 40th is now less than 2 months away and I have pretty much given up that I will meet the goal – why do I do that? – there is still time – yes it would be a really big ask now but hey I could get pretty close if I got stuck into it…but the motivation for my birthday has all but vanished.

The plan was to have a party with a friend who is also turning 40 a week before me – we though it would be a good idea to do a combined party (we live quite close and share some mutual friends) – we decided that we would just include friends and no family ( I have a large extended family) and we would do our own separate family things – well that is about where it came unstuck – I mentioned this to my Mum and she was not happy – I was quite surprised – she is not a party person at all – her dad go out a lot with friends but really just out to eat somewhere and they are generally home by 10ish…anyway my Mum appeared to be quite upset though she kept saying that she did not care but you could tell by the tone that this was not the case (our family is not very good and just saying what they feel!)….anyway my Sister said that she made a few comments about just being the baby sitter etc… so at this stage I knew this was not going to be a good idea (my Mum does a lot for me and my kids without her I would struggle to raise my children). So I spoke with my friend and we decided that it would probably be best if we did our thing. So that is where I am at – to do a party or not??? I am actually really not that keen anymore at all just too hard really….But I really need to make a decision very soon so I can book a date into everyone calendar….at stage I am thinking maybe I just go to dinner with a couple of close friends and leave it at that.

Line in the sand

I have had an absolutely shocker of a week again – I have a few things going on that I am not coping with emotionally so instead of dealing with the issues at hand and finding other ways to cope I am eating instead – amazing how quickly we can slip straight back into old habits. Not looking forward to weigh in tomorrow I estimate another +2 kg.

Feeling extremely disappointed in me – I am feeling that all the hard work that I have done over the past 12 months is slipping away! I feel that the target that I had set for my 40th is out of reach now which is really disappointing as I this was very achievable and I was right on track until a couple of weeks ago!!

I know to turn this around is fully within my control – there maybe something that I cannot fully control at the moment but I can certainly control the food choices I make.

I know what I need to do so I just need to get on with it really….. When I have a new starting point tomorrow I will set a new mini goal...just need to get back to the basics

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WI Y2 Week 4 - How does it feel to be 31kg lighter

I did my plan and followed it probably 95% of the time – unfortuntley the scales did not reflect my efforts – I had another gain of 400g...... bring my total losses back to 31kg.....what is happening.....what am i doing – this is my 3rd consective gain.... and the way I going since WI I am heading for my 4th......

I went back looking at some old post and found one of my first post “How does it fell” – in this post I wrote about what it feels like to be 142kg! Well I am 31kg lighter so I though I would update myself on how to feels to be 31kg lighter (instead of dwelling on the 3 gains!!)

How does it feel to be 31kg lighter:

• I no longer take anti-inflammontary everyday – actually I hardly take them all now
• My knees hardly hurt at all – when I walk now I just walk, I am not thinking that my knees are going to collapse!
• My lower back is like new – I am having problems with middle to upper back but that is more occurpational hazard that an weight issue (sitting in front of a computer all day!)
• My heal spurs are completley gone – no pain in my feet for months
• Walk – I now walk like a normal person and I can walk all day without any issues – I can shop all day!!
• Sitting is a lot more comfortable – I am still conscious of the chairs I sit on but I have not sat on a chair for a long time and then worried that it is going to break - I don’t feel like everything is hanging out the sides! I still hestitate if I need to sit inbetween two people but getting bettter
• Floor – getting on and off the floor is soooo much easier – I will now sit on the floor without hestitation because I know that I can get myself back up without help and without looking like a fool....
• I have been going out more over the last few months even doing fancy dress.....what with that??
• Buying cloths is a lot eaiser – this time last year I was buying from BeMe XL tops and size 26 pants – last week I brought M tops and size 18 pants.....
• Exercise – I noticed back in my original post there was no mention of exercise this was because it was simply to painful – now I am walking on the treadmill >5km for 45mins, going to bootcamp weekly, out walking rounds the parks with my baby, using my weight machine, cycling etc...
• When I go out for the day now it is not a problem – I can walk around all day and still have the energy when I get home to prepare a meal, clean up etc... No more collescaping on the couch!!

Above are 12 reason why I need to forge ahead and at home their 2 really big reason....I want to be around long enought to hold my daughter’s daughter and my son’s son (my son is only 2yr!)

September Challenge results

What can I say - I think it speaks for itself!



SW: 108.9
CW: 110.8

GWES: 105.9

Total: +1.5

wk5: +0.4
wk4: +2.0
wk3: +0.8
wk2: -2.3
wk1: +1.0

Menu Plan set

I have set up my Food menu plan for the week - I have also included some exercise though it is really just walking at this stage - I will factor in more exercise once the food is back under control.
Feeling much better already.
I would upload my the spreadsheet can't work out how!

WI Y2 Week 3

I have had an absolule disasterous week food wise – I mean really disasterous – I had a gain of +2kg which I deserved!!

So I am taking a big deep breath – a step back and calm down. My plan is sit down tomorrow night (Thursday) write a food & exercise plan for the week and stick to it (and of course get back on the track first thing in the morning (Thursday).

My 40th is approaching and I have still have 10kg to lose….I can do this if I put 110% in….

WI Y2 Week 2

Really late on posting this week – last week had a gain of +800g bring my total back to 33.4. There was no explanation to the gain expect that the week before I did have a really big loss and sometimes a big loss can be followed by a gain which is just evening itself out I suppose!

I reinstalled my laptop operating system last week and some how – don’t ask me how – I manage to backup everything EXCEPT my photos – can you believe it – the only thing that is of any real importance (and I cannot replace or recreate) I forgot to backup!!!!! Anyway I have been in recovery mode all week trying to salvage as many of the photos as I can….I am so annoyed at myself – one for overlooking the most important stage of the backup process and for not transferring the photos to CD and my external harddrive on a regular basis – I have lost close to 12 months worth of photos – which is a lot when you have a 2 year old!! So bummed at myself anyway so that is what my nights have been taken up with over the last week.